the hub

i love the hub.

before anyone reaches for the barf bag, let me qualify: it's not the mushy-gushy tweeny emotions that are peppered all over blogs in bold, sometimes even raunchy declarations of love.

still, this is an uncharacteristic moment for me to openly publish this. i'm doing this to remind myself that whenever the heat rises i must think positive thoughts. it just occurred to me that despite all the grieving, ranting and raving over the far-from-perfect relations with my legally-related family, the hub has stood by me time and again.

i know it's not easy for him, always being sandwiched between piety and insanity. it's a crappy game of Spin the Wheel of Loyalty when you are both rewarded and cursed simultaneously, and whatever you do is WRONG. either way, you can never, EVER win.

throw in my careless frivolity over financial matters and sloppy administrative house-keeping skills and it's no surprise why the hub gets as grumpy/angry as he does. he managed to solve another of my blunders again today, and he must be tired of picking up after my trail. he must have summoned all his will power to keep himself cool, calm and collected by my stupidity. even i am aghast by my own actions and no, i shall even attempt to describe what transcended because it's just too foolish. it's got something to do with my mobile phone usage :(

i really haven't given him the due credit he deserves. erase the fact that i am emotionally starved at times. the hub slaves to provide adequate food and shelter, and other creature comforts for our family of 4. at the end of the day, my fundamental human needs (as defined by Abraham Maslow) are met and i really should not be complaining.

after all, i married the man. and should accept him for what he is. just like he's accepted me and is clearly resigned to his fate, the poor, poor dear.