Tomorrow would have been your 74th birthday.
We'd probably have made arrangements for dinner, while the kids would have picked out your birthday cake and made you cards.
Unfortunately, we won't be doing any of these tomorrow. Or ever again.
Nobody would have thought that last year would be the last birthday we'd ever celebrate with you.
If only we knew.
Mum called earlier and she broke down. She was thinking of dinner with the kids tomorrow night but I've to attend an official school event and can't make it. She was disappointed. I think she wanted to be occupied so that she won't be missing your presence so very much.
But I intend to drop by Bright Hill Temple's Ancestral Hall after my morning lessons to visit you. Told Mum we could go for lunch instead before I head back to work. I'll call her later to confirm the arrangements.
Life for us goes on. We miss you, but we just have to march forward and put the pain aside. I have my kids and work to keep myself occupied, so it's much easier for me to solider on although I still do get emotional every once in a while.
I know it's unbearable for Mum but she is coping the best she can, and I'm proud of her efforts to keep positive. But I think you know her best, and how empty she actually feels.
Wherever you are, I hope you've settled in nicely. Do visit us whenever you can spare time from your busy schedule - of course I know you're tied up with many projects and engagements with old friends. You're not one to be twiddling your thumbs and watching clouds drift by. You were never the idler in life, so there's no way you'll be one in the afterlife.
Here's one for the memories, Dad.
|Dad's 73rd (and final) Birthday celebration|
Your loving daughter always