goodbye ah-por

my last living grandparent left us yesterday morning at about 11am.

it wasn't a huge shock as my maternal grandma (who's about 80 i think) has not been well for the last couple of months, and i think the family's quite prepared for her death. my uncle is planning a small, modest and quiet affair for family members and close relatives, and there'll be no obituary in the newspapers.

still, i think it's going to hit us all during the funeral on thursday - and i probably won't be attending the cremation for 2 reasons:

a) i'm pregnant and am not supposed to partake in the funeral rites
b) we're supposed to drive up to genting on thursday morning itself.

my parents told me not to cancel my trip, and that i should go ahead since i'm not supposed to be even present at the wake/funeral (for superstitious reasons) as i'm already married and considered "out" of the family. but i'm still going to attend the wake (taking the necessary precautions), out of respect for her.

goodbye ah-por. we will all miss you and your famous hainanese chicken (ball) rice, abalone soup and the sumptuous spread you whip up at every family gathering. thank you for showering your care, love and concern on us all, and for the selfless sacrifices you've made for everyone. you've lived a long meaningful life and may your soul rest in peace.