flip and fall

early this morning, i heard a THUD followed by an ear-piercing wail.

i jumped up and whipped around instantly...

the baby was GONE.

she had rolled off the bed.

with my heart in my mouth, i shot out and found her lying next to the hub (who was sleeping on the floor). thankfully she had landed on the mattress. i cradled her in my arms immediately and checked to see if she'd broken any bones or bumps her head.

wei was screaming her lungs out and taking in gulps of air. she was obviously in shock.

despite being badly shaken and nearly in tears, i tried my best to hush her cries by rocking her back and forth. it took me a good 5-10 minutes to soothe her. when she was a little calmer, i let her latch on and that helped to comfort her.

i'm a bad, bad BAAAAAAAAAAAAAD mummy. :(

needless to say, the hub was upset (with me). i usually sleep at the edge of the bed but i'd woken up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet and slept on the other side (because i needed to feed from the fuller breast). i'd placed the bolster next to wei in hope that it would block her. but apparently she's now strong enough to kick it and roll herself off the bed!

wei's only 3 months old but she's now able to flip from her back to her tummy. and she does this continuously throughout the night. her little flip-o-ramas have left me panda-eyed as i've to be up constantly to check that she's not suffocating.

if my memory serves me well, my older 2 only started rolling over on the side when they were about 4 months. so i didn't expect wei to fall off the bed, especially when she's sleeping in the middle of the bed!

here is wei on the mattress that broke her fall. this picture was taken last week though - obviously not this morning when the accident took place :(

i guess this means only one thing: i'll be spending the next few years sleeping on the floor with her.

but i'd rather suffer a little discomfort to ensure that she's safe.

i'm a bad mummy.

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD mummy.

*sob sob sob*