Today, I Rest

I woke up a wreck this morning but as the day progressed, things picked up a little.

No rainbows, sugar-coated cupcakes or pretty butterflies. But I'm able to breathe a little and sort out my thoughts.

The item which I thought I'd lost turned up at someone else's desk so I didn't misplace it after all. It just wasn't returned to me.

I'm just too relieved for words.

Other issues were clarified even though irreparable damage has already been done and my integrity was called into question. Whatever I worked hard to establish over the years was wiped out in an instant through no fault of mine. I presented my case, explained my part and will hope for the best. But I know things will never ever be the same again and that the smudged stain will remain despite applying the most effective cleaning agents to get rid of the traces.

I'm just too old for this type of emotional roller-coaster. Perhaps these few days taught me a lesson - don't ever be complacent and take things for granted.

Today, I rest my weary head and heart. I hope for a good night's sleep.